God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Remember that situation last year you thought you wouldn’t get through? The one that you cried out for help with? The one that you felt was impossible to overcome or get out of?
Now you’re out of it. God was the one who made that happen – not you. He can do it again and again and again. Just trust him. Sometimes God needs to move you out of YOUR way to make things happen. Trust the process, but most importantly, trust the Creator.
I know… I owe so many of you an explanation. Specifically, where did I go and why I disappeared for about a year or more. Or maybe you just happened to stumble across this random post on the internet and are genuinely interested in this apology. Well, here goes…
I’ve been away for the longest doing ALOT of soul searching and alot of reflection. It’s been a very lonely journey in keeping up Voice4Society, Inc. Every time I started this page up, I would quickly get into the whole “grass is greener syndrome”… you know, the one where everyone else seems to be killing it and then here you are, on your own, just not really doing much… or at least that’s how it felt. Unfotunately, I didn’t seek the help I needed to just talk to people and get the social therapy I desperately needed. Depression and defeat quickly set in and everytime I thought about this group – “FAILURE” just kept jumping out at me. I would just shut this down and shut it out of my life but it always lingered in the background that there was more to be done… that this wasn’t the end. Many of you have been involved in Voice4Society for such a long time (Read: years) and I can’t even begin to tell you how much I appreciate you all. It’s because of your love and support that I continued as much as I possibly could.
During my time of reflection, I came to terms with something that is both a strength and a weakness of mine. I’m a starter. An igniter. I love to get the ball rolling and to spark new creative ideas but keeping it going is where the issue lies. It quickly develops into this situation where I go overboard, do too much, over-promise, and then under-deliver. For that, I am truly sorry. I have never once thought of you guys as stepping stones to success (let’s be clear on that). The issue has always just been that it’s been too much for a one-woman team. While a few have stepped up and come alongside me to help build the brand, I’ve always ended up encouraging them to go their own path and build their successes in their own right. I want to see people thrive and find their voice in this lifetime and generation and become positive worldchangers, especially when it comes to God.
I’ve strayed so far from what the original intent was for Voice4Society and I want to get back to that place. That place is simply to use this platform for good, for education, to advance the Gospel, to equip and empower youth leaders, to bring me + those around me closer to Christ, and in the face of adversity and questioning, to be as authentic and transparent as I possibly can… something I struggle with. I know that may cost me many followers and family members (because that’s how I see you all) but that is my cross to bear in an effort to stay true to me and what I believe I have been called to do.
If this is the last post you ever read from me, just know that I love you and I am so eternally grateful for you life. Thank you for all you have done and all your support thus far. It has not been in vain. I hope you stick around and see what comes out of this instead and how it gets turned around but I understand if this is no longer what you want. I can’t stop you from leaving but I can say that here will always be a home for you. If you have decided to continue to stay along on this journey, then YAY! We’re going to have so much fun and I hope that you not only become a silent observer but an active one. Let’s talk. Let’s communicate. Let’s share this journey of being a Christian together. Let’s discuss. Let’s really be real and raw with one another in an effort to strengthen our faith together. Let’s do this.
Dedicated to my loving husband – a man who made it safe for me to be vulnerable and finally come out + be unapologetically me.
I used to bubble over in excitement for New Year’s Day. For me, it meant a new semester was coming with a new opportunity to start over. However recently, I read an article from author Jon Acuff that mentioned people do not need to wait until a new year begins to work on themselves. I thought this was a great point. Nevertheless, I love to make the ol’ New Year’s Resolutions list.
Below are 3 of my main resolutions for 2017:
1. Learn a language.
This one I’ve been trying to do on my own for a while and I never know which place to go to that I can trust. Google translate is not always the best (Never trust Google, it’s always saying I have cancer). I went to the Half-Priced Book Store and got some pretty decent stuff so I’m very hopeful for this year! I am hopeful this will be the year I can make this dream a reality!
2. Mission Trip!
I have always wanted to attend a mission trip and recently I stumbled across one for Japan that looks great. My friend and I would love to attend this one. Fingers crossed! I pray it works out but if it does not, it is okay. There are always local trips that can fill our time until we get the opportunity to go abroad. Wherever God sends me is cool with me!
3. Prepare for Foster Kids.
This one is jam-packed with excitement (and work!). Some of the items on my to-do list includes: obtaining suitable housing for fostering children, getting my bakery up and running, maintaining a steady cash flow, and completing my final paperwork. I definitely have my work cut out for me but I know it will all be worth it.
I am excited for what 2017 holds and I am so grateful for all the things I learned in 2016.
Happy New Year and I hope you all accomplish your goals as well!
My family does not celebrate Christmas and we just cannot seem to get into the swing of Hanukkah. We do not have Jewish friends that live near us so we tend to get overwhelmed with how to celebrate the holiday.
Millermas started right after we received an eviction notice years ago. At the time, our parents were going through a long divorce. It was certainly a rough time, but it was nice. Our dad was gone, our mom was working, and we watched old Saturday Night Live re-runs with Eddie Murphy. In particular, we watched the episode where his landlord gave him an eviction notice. It was funny to see it and know how not “funny-funny” (ironic?) it was.
Myron was our mom’s fiancé (at the time), which is where we get the “Miller” part of “Millermas”. After about 5 years, we have this unique holiday down to a science:
We eat dinner on December 25th and laze around the house watching classics like Jack Frost and Santa’s Coming to Town (because I like Heat and Cold Miser). We always eat beef pigs-in-a-blanket and Kentucky Pie. The pie is shaped like a cookie. After you take out the nuts and the crust, you’re basically left with a cookie in a pie tin (at least that’s what the recipe boils down to).
We shop on the 26th and take advantage of the Christmas sales. The entire day is spent running from our parents and only meeting up to visit another store or to eat. Afterwards, we come home and split the gifts up so everyone gets time to wrap the presents with Mom. Myron watches the other kids and puts up the decorations.
On the 27th, we trash the beautiful wrapping (the same one we worked so hard on to make neat and beautiful) and get to the good stuff – the present inside. We bask in our gifts, which hopefully include a pair of socks that makes skating across the hardwood floor easier.
This year, we are moving it to the weekend. That way, we can have our entire family together and accommodate everyone’s busy schedule. It is nice to have something that is affordable and is flexible enough as a plan to work in different situations. It really is our favorite thing.