I know… I owe so many of you an explanation. Specifically, where did I go and why I disappeared for about a year or more. Or maybe you just happened to stumble across this random post on the internet and are genuinely interested in this apology. Well, here goes…
I’ve been away for the longest doing ALOT of soul searching and alot of reflection. It’s been a very lonely journey in keeping up Voice4Society, Inc. Every time I started this page up, I would quickly get into the whole “grass is greener syndrome”… you know, the one where everyone else seems to be killing it and then here you are, on your own, just not really doing much… or at least that’s how it felt. Unfotunately, I didn’t seek the help I needed to just talk to people and get the social therapy I desperately needed. Depression and defeat quickly set in and everytime I thought about this group – “FAILURE” just kept jumping out at me. I would just shut this down and shut it out of my life but it always lingered in the background that there was more to be done… that this wasn’t the end. Many of you have been involved in Voice4Society for such a long time (Read: years) and I can’t even begin to tell you how much I appreciate you all. It’s because of your love and support that I continued as much as I possibly could.
During my time of reflection, I came to terms with something that is both a strength and a weakness of mine. I’m a starter. An igniter. I love to get the ball rolling and to spark new creative ideas but keeping it going is where the issue lies. It quickly develops into this situation where I go overboard, do too much, over-promise, and then under-deliver. For that, I am truly sorry. I have never once thought of you guys as stepping stones to success (let’s be clear on that). The issue has always just been that it’s been too much for a one-woman team. While a few have stepped up and come alongside me to help build the brand, I’ve always ended up encouraging them to go their own path and build their successes in their own right. I want to see people thrive and find their voice in this lifetime and generation and become positive worldchangers, especially when it comes to God.
I’ve strayed so far from what the original intent was for Voice4Society and I want to get back to that place. That place is simply to use this platform for good, for education, to advance the Gospel, to equip and empower youth leaders, to bring me + those around me closer to Christ, and in the face of adversity and questioning, to be as authentic and transparent as I possibly can… something I struggle with. I know that may cost me many followers and family members (because that’s how I see you all) but that is my cross to bear in an effort to stay true to me and what I believe I have been called to do.
If this is the last post you ever read from me, just know that I love you and I am so eternally grateful for you life. Thank you for all you have done and all your support thus far. It has not been in vain. I hope you stick around and see what comes out of this instead and how it gets turned around but I understand if this is no longer what you want. I can’t stop you from leaving but I can say that here will always be a home for you. If you have decided to continue to stay along on this journey, then YAY! We’re going to have so much fun and I hope that you not only become a silent observer but an active one. Let’s talk. Let’s communicate. Let’s share this journey of being a Christian together. Let’s discuss. Let’s really be real and raw with one another in an effort to strengthen our faith together. Let’s do this.
Dedicated to my loving husband – a man who made it safe for me to be vulnerable and finally come out + be unapologetically me.