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My name is Crystal Holdipp.
From a little girl there has been an attack to destroy my life. Around the age of 3 years old my mind was disturbed, I stopped eating and ended up in the hospital. It’s like the enemy was trying to keep my captive even from little.
Growing up from a child I often got teased and bullied a lot. People would tease me about my looks and who I am. Low self-esteem began to develop as I felt I was not good enough. Throughout my formal education I had learning challenges where I struggled academically, was in learning support and was retained in primary school. This didn’t make me feel good as I felt I wasn’t smart. I wanted to be accepted by people and have friends just like any other child or teen so I started to do things to please my friends so if they wanted me to do things for them that I didn’t want to do or I felt uncomfortable with I still did it. As a teenager I struggled with depression because of the academic failure and the disappointment I felt about it.
I would come home depressed and often would have emotional breakdowns where I would frequently break down and cry and feel so much hurt. As a teenager I grew up with a poor self – image of myself and didn’t love myself and lacked confidence. These things would show up in the tasks that I would do and they way I would carry myself. A fear began to develop in me and I held a resistance to allow God to move in my life so I built up walls to keep God and everyone out. I have struggled with things like social anxiety, anxiety, depression, low -self esteem and learning deficiencies.
Though I still have my struggles, I have begun to break out of the shell that I had been living in. By God’s grace the egg shell is cracking and the pieces are falling apart piece by piece.
I have an article written more about my story with anxiety and depression. Here’s the link: http://manifestyourdreams.biz/2012/01/08/anxiety-to-the-extreme-guest-post-2-for-authenticmovement-christian-perspective-on-anxiety-to-the-extreme/
I have a website that you can check out to know more about me and my journey. My website address is: www.crystalholdipp.com